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It just come one day while I was
chatting on facebook to whom I admired for last 6-7 years. She had a great
charm in which I was lost and secretely felt in love with her. Now the time has
come when I’ve to propose her. My friends varun, vinay and one of our senior
Anshuman forced me and influenced me to propose her. It was 29th may
2013 while I proposed her on facebook while chatting. Soon I got some shocking
replies-
“Kya”??
“what do you mean”????
“what are yo saying”????
“are you serious”???
“Tum samajh rahe ho ki kya keh
rahe ho”????
I calmly replied her that “ I
LOVE YOU” .
Soon I asked her to make me call
so that I can talk to her. After some time she was all alone in her home
because her mother, father went for shopping in local market and her brother
was in his coaching; she called me on my cellphone. First time I heard her
voice for me only, though I’ve made some fake calls for wrong numbers. My
intention was only just to listen her. Now while I heard “HELLO”, I was on
cloud nine. I was very much excited as my legs were in the air. I was feeling
mixed emotions. That time she didn’t responded for what I was waiting for. I
talked her gently and asked about her and her family. She replied calmly each
and every question I’d asked and I could listen her beautiful smile too.
That day was a red letter day of
my life. I can never forget that very first special call which we chit chatted
for our very reason.
Soon after that call was finished
I was feeling extremely happy and couldn’t express my feelings. My roomies were
there over me and as normally friends are they are also “ kameeney” (wicked).
All they meant was only partyyyyy.
That day passed and we were on
regular calls which were short then but become for a long time after some time
spend. We were on the cloud nine as we were doing something strange which we
were not allowed to do in our families.
As these were my summer vacations
so I was asked by my father to come home. This was not less than a lottery for
me because we were from the same hometown as I was send away for my B.Tech. she
was doing her graduation in Sitapur (our home town).
Sitapur is a District of Uttar
Pradesh and is famous for one of the Hindsu Sacred place called NAIMISHARANYA
CHAKRA TEERTHA , a land of saints & hermits . Even so old Shree
RAMCHARITMANAS describe it’s importance as
“ Teerathvar Naimish Vikhyata Ati
Puneet Sadhak Fal Data”
So I came back to my home. I was
continuously in touch with her through sms’es. After two days I received a call
from unknown number as it was She.
(Sorry guyz I forgot to describe
her name. Her name is Srashti and she is called by name Pooja with her family)
I couldn’t express my feelings to
anyone as I leave my home and started wandering here and there in search of a
safe place where I could talk her very patiently and for a long period.
Suddenly I met my friend Arun Verma who was going for a ride on her bike so I
asked him to take me away from there we roamed towards Park named Sarojani
Vatika.
There I talked her for a long
time and asked many things about her qualities and told her about my fanatsies
about her that I fell in love with her for the very first time when I saw her
and this being a long time for about 7 years. She was amazed and shocked to
hear me and told me that she thought about me as I was only a studious fellow.
I told her that I was doing studies just to impress her and to compete with her
as she was a scholar. Now Arun had an urgent work with his friend, Umakant so
we started bike and roamed towards his friend’s home. It was quite difficult to
talk on cellphone over a running bike but somehow I managed to talk to her. Now
we reached Umakant’s home and it was over 40 minutes and she was on her terrace
so we departed our talk and promised each other to talk very quickly.
Now we three friends were
together Me, Umakant & Arun. Arun & Umakant were doing a course on
Marine Engineering from Indian Maritime Academy, Chennai. Umakant told us that
they got placed and they have to leave the country in february’15. So this was
the time for celebration, we were doing some small kinda party with Sprite
& Kurkure.
The day passed in this manner now
my brother, Shubham who is younger to me passed 12th and now he had
to take admission in graduation so I opted Kanpur for his education as I was
already there doing my B.Tech. ECE 3rd year from CSJM University,
Kanpur. I asked Varun to purchase admission form of D.A.V. College, Kanpur. He
sent me the same through courier. I received it and came to know that the last
date is near so I have to left my hometown to submit his application form.
I reached Kanpur and this day I
have to go to his college for submission of his application form. I reached
there at D.A.V. Kanpur and made all formalities done. While going to bank for
making DD for college fees, I received a call from Srashti.
While I was on road and there was
a huge traffic over there, I somehow managed to talk to her. She told me that
she is out from her house with her friend Jaspreet who was with her boyfriend
she asked me to come and meet her. That time I felt extremely sorry as I was
not there and she somehow managed to meet me. I told her about my current
situation that I was not there. She also felt regreted. This way I talked her
for about 10 minutes only. I somehow got DD early than others because I paid
more than the others were doing. This way I completed all the formalities and
shubham’s seat was secured there in D.A.V. Kanpur.
As while returning from DAV to my
room I again received a call from another girl that was akansha pandey my classmate,
She was asking me some rubbish happened to her friend, another classmate (Jaya
Tripathi). She handed over phone to her and Jaya asked me to say sorry as there
I commented over a status of our classmate, Pankaj Chaudhary. He wrote some
shayari explaining his loneliness and lack of gf situation. I commented over
that why to go outside the class when there are girls in our class also. Jaya
was asking me that I should say sorry because that was her whom everyone was
talking about and why not when there were vacation in summer this year they
only two were there at the cafeteria and enjoying cold drink and samosa. At
that time I said sorry if I did it knowingly. But sooner my male ego was
aroused by vinay who told me why to say sorry if there was not my fault. I
called her and started over jaya about what had happened doesn’t include me and
I am not sorry over that matter. After completing my DAV job, I returned to
Lucknow. In the night while I was on facebook
I read the status of a female from 2k11 batch stating a good poetic rhyme
explaining that she was harassed in college. I couldn’t stop myself and
commented,
“Chori chori kyu khul ke likho
@jaya tripathi”.
At that time Pankaj commented
some abusive language over there. Firstly, I asked him to talk like
gentleman but he was out of his mind at
that time and doing abusive comments over comments and the matter became worsen
as I was also not a step behind. I also replied too many abuses as I could.
Soon the matter became viral and everyone of my batch was came to know about
what was happening over the confession page. The matter was closed on that day,
my friends varun and vinay were asking me explanation why I was not responding
strongly over what Pankaj has done to me so I promised them that I would teach
him a lesson when I come back to Kanpur. So I returned to Sitapur on very next
day.
It was 17th July when
I firstly met her in a very renowned restaurant of my city, Rajasthani
Restaurent, where we two can talk whatever we want to talk. I reached the restaurant
with Cadbuory Dairymilk Silk chocolate to present her. She was with her friend
Jaspreet Kaur who was with her boyfriend, So we were alone on our table and
they two were getting intimated like love birds. Srashti was shivering as she
was much excited and fear could be seen on her face of being caught. Somehow I
made her comfortable but couldn’t stop her shyness. I hold her hand in my hand
and confidently looked into her eyes and said to the most beautiful three magic
words
“I LOVE YOU SRASHTI”
BE MINE!!!
Still she hadn’t responded over
my proposal but for the very first time I got hint from her that she too was in
love with me. We were talking about each other families and in between somehow
manage to be with each other forever.
I ordered “PAV BHAJI” for four of
us. I , Jaspreet, me
We were unaware of time which was
being passed at a very high rate. She had to go to her home as she anyhow
managed this meeting so we came out of the restaurant and came to a nearby
store for some purchasing. I offered her a dress which she refused to take. I
and Srashti left the store without purchasing anything. I left her to the auto
stand by then she took auto and went to her home. I was being caught of doing
all this by my two ex-classmate Kislay Dixit and Kumar Gaurav. They were asking
if I had achieved noble prize because we were from boys school where having
girlfriend is consider as great achievement. I told them about Srashti each and
everything so that there might be no confusion about saying anything evil of
hers.
I returned to my home. Mummy
offered me food but I don’t know which type of fear it was that I was unable to
eat anything or it was just over excitement that I couldn’t eat anything in
home. I continuously texted Srashti that if everything was alright. Luckily
everything was in our favour, we met each other like this for the very first
time and we succeeded in our programme. Nobody saw us in this situation so we
were safe. We were not so free to talk over phone whernver we want so we used
to chat all the free time.
I trusted her so much as I wanted
to tell her everything about my past so that nothing would left to tell her
about myself. I asked her that whether she will feel hurted by knowing
anything about me but she wanted to
know. She called me on my phone in midnight hours so repeated her a call and
told her about my past life that there was a girl from my college who proposed
me but I never replied about that. Her name was Vimal Yadav, strange but that’s
her name. she was 5’7” tall and had very good features. Every batchmates of
mine fantasizes about her. She was the mistress of a very good physique with
extraordinary features. She and I hung up for 10 months; actually from my 2nd
semester upto 3rd semester. Nothing physical was between us but we
kissed each other while watching a movie which I sponsored to her. The time
when I stopped telling her about my past there was a great sound of cry and
sorrow that if Srashti had committed any mistake by accepting my proposal. I
told her that this was my innocence and trust that I never want to deceive her.
She was unable to stop her tears and I was feeling too much guilty as I had
commited any serious murder. The mistake about which I can’t forgive myself. I
was feeling guilty for more than one week as she was not answering me about my
texts and my phone calls.
After two or three days I have to
come back to Kanpur to continue my studies as I was planning to compete in GATE
examination. I came back to Kanpur and started studying. Every day I made out
some plans to achieve maximum output in exam but failed to achieve desired
output. I couldn’t studied for a long time as I was in great distress. Suddenly
I received a call from my sweetheart, She was sobbing and I could feel her
mourning.
She said, ”Ankit! I’ve never
thought that you may be of this type I trusted you so much.”
I was feeling hell until she said
that you are honest and she wants to know each and everything of my past and
from my future too. Whatever I’ve done
in my past and what I am going to do she wanted to manage and create my account
on behalf of me.
I said atleast 200 times to
SRASHTI,MY SHONA, MY SWEET HEART, MY LIFE……..
……………………….I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU,
I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE
YOU, I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I
LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU……………………………..
For the very first time I heard
the same about me she replied, I LOVE YOU TOO ANKIT. The day was a red letter
day for me. I can not forget the day when love of my life my fantasy came into
existence. She was among one of the peoples for whom I can do anything,
Anything…
We talked over 45 minutes as
there was no one on her home and she was on her terrace. I mischievously asked
her whether there was anyone to comment over her but she refused and warn me
not to talk like this. I beg pardon for that time. Soon everything between us
became normal and she forgot everything which I told her and we never talked
about that. We were busy talking about ourselves and exchanging information
about our families.
The days were passing and I’ve
almost forgotten about the matter which was happened over facebook and made a
great issue my friends Vinay & Varun were continuously criticizing me of
not doing anything against Pankaj who challenged my male ego. I have given them
a date on which I am going to beat that beast. My father planned a vacation
along with his colleague and our family friend Shukla Uncle to Mata Vaishno
Devi, J & K and three other devi S in Himachal Pradesh Kangra Valley. We
were supposed to left Lucknow as the train was from LKO Jn. On August 4, 2014.
I gave 3rd august to my buddies to watch the special show of Pankaj,
the so called bhaiya of my class. The day arrived when the show was supposed to
be performed, in our last period I asked Pankaj to meet me on Cafeteria of the
university so that I have to meet him on a specific matter which was created by
him. I along with Vinay and Varun reached cafeteria and were waiting for the
hunt. Soon we saw Pankaj who was coming towards us was trying to skip himself
from that situation but as I was determined in beating him so I called him but
before meeting us he went for a help to the nearby coffee shop where so called
bhai s were sitting as the environment was politicized due to fake news of
Student Union Elections to be held this year in the university. The three
people came towards us. As all of them know about me because I had also spent
much time practising politics and talking shit about the University student as
well as the faculty members of every department.
I asked Pankaj to say Sorry but
he was an ardent fellow he thought his disrespect in saying Sorry. He again
used abusive language to me, I was searching the situation when to start the
show. As he said ill I left my hand on his left cheek he was reddish on his
face and said again a dialogue
“Mai Jaat hu. Maa
chod dunga”
(I couldn’t want to write it but
it will be boring to read without some true words which were in reality)
I couldn’t stop my hand as
continuously hitting him on his face as I am much lighter comparatively to
other students or any colleague of my age group so when he pushed me I felt
down but I didn’t lost my temper as I was continuously hitting him. Soon my
senior Abhilash Katiyar who was campaigning about the so called election came
near me and released both of us as we were ready to drink each other’s blood.
He thought that the matter was about Vimal Yadav my Ex but I told him that this
is not that matter and if he found myself indulge in fight over any girl he
might do whatever he wanted to do with me. When I told him the entire incident
he burst into laughter and said to me that we are too modern to be fight over
facebook.
He and all his colleague started
rebuking both of us as we were quarrelling with each other instead of some
outsider. But I was relaxed then and felt proud after beating the beast. Then
after the entire matter finished I went to my room and received a call from my
sweetie. There was a different voice on different side and I was little bit
confused and then there came a reply that Ayushi is speaking. Ayushi was her
cousin and then she was in 11th with Srashti’s Brother Deepak in
different school. We talked for over a long time then I told her about the
incident which was happened in college then suddenly I shocked and listened a
different tone over other side of the phone. Yes it was Srashti she said to me
‘Ankit! , how could you do this? I was speechless and told her that it should
be happen much more before.
She cut the phone and was so much
angry with me that she didn’t talk me or text me for that entire day. I was
much confused as the next day it will be the last day to stay in touch with her
as I have to leave the state for my trip with my family. In the night I called
her. After so much call cuts she received my call and replied me that why am I
calling her if I don’t need her. I said sorry to her but she was much hurted as
well as I was feeling so much helpless to convince her but love and affection
between us made it happen. I promised her not to do it again then there was a
bit silence for some time. I started talking her in regular manner and I also
asked her why she was talking in different way by somebody else’s name. She
then asked me that she just wanted to check herself that if she would be
possible to trick me or not; but she succeeded. Further I started talking in
some romantic tone and told her that I have to leave for the pre-planned
journey. She was a little bit nervous and in anger so she didn’t respond me in
good manner. After so much talk on the phone we hung up and slept.
The very next morning I woke up
early in the morning and I have to catch MEMU train for LKO (Lucknow) from CNB
(Kanpur Central). At Lucknow Charbagh Railway Station where my family members
and Shukla uncle’s family was waiting for me and we have to catch the train
(SEALDAH EXPRESS) from there for Jammu Tawi. We catch the train on 10:30 AM and
enter into the train where we were searching for our booked seat and in no time
we found the seats. Everybody was so much excited as this was very long journey
for all of us to travel. Some passengers were sitting on our seats but they
were not agree to leave it as they were sitting there and they have to reach
SHAHJAHANPUR
After so long talking to them
they were agreed. We started talking to them and we came to know that the
family was coming from Karanchi (Pakistan) and they were there for their
relative wedding party.
Suddenly my thinking changed
after knowing them that they were from Pakistan, the country on which we indian
can never trust as they backstabbed us for so many times.
Anyways I don’t have to spoil my
trip so I diverted my mind. In our journey after our first stoppage at Balamau,
A man entered the compartment, as per as his physique I was sure that he might
be an army personnel and after we introduced each other we came to know that he
was an army personnel and currently was posted in J&K. We talked so much
about J&K, Mata Vaishno Devi and climbing of mountain to reach there, I
came to know that it will take 8 hrs to climb the mountain over which we will
seeking the blessings of Mata Vaishno Devi. All talkings were stopped as the
time was speeding and the train was reaching towards it’s destination. I was
feeling desperate of not being able to talk to my shona as I was travelling and
there were network issues. Darkness was coming as we reached BAREILY, the city
which was introduced in Bollywood songs as “Jhumka Gira Re Bareily Ke Bazar
me…..” and from where the famous actress turned singer Priyanka Chopra belongs
to. The city seemed to me very ordinary if I compared it with Lucknow or
Kanpur, But that’s OK it was a good place to live. I was continuously listening
to Radio on my cellphone. I was supposed to sleep for a while and woke up in
the night. It was 10:00 PM and I roamed inside the train and stand there on
door and I saw that I was in Ludhiana (PUNJAB). The state which I love by my
heart and the people are tremendous from there. Actually I love Punjab &
Punjabi peoples and their language, food, traditions, customs and everything
from there. I kept myself waking as I wanted to keep every scenes and sights in
my eyes and wanted to be there. Then I saw cities like JALANDHAR, AMRITSAR, the
city famous for it’s golden temple. I truly wanted to be there but this was not
a part of our journey. Again I went over my berth at 01:30 AM and started
sleeping.
Again everyone inside the train
was woke up and I also woke up after there was hullaballoo. I was amazed to see
the view from outside the train it was like somewhere which I can call “HEAVEN
ON EARTH”. I was entering the Northern most state of our country JAMMU &
KASHMIR. As many stations were left behind I was reaching towards our
destination. I could feel the breeze coming from the outside and the scenery
which was making me feel divine, Now I thought why holy people come to THE
HIMALAYAS.
We reached our destination JAMMU
TAWI Railway Station on August 05th , 2013 morning at 11:30 AM. I
was amused after seeing the beauty of the platform and also shocked over the
security features available there. We came outside the platform and were
searching for the Bus to reach KATRA another city of J&K from where we have
to reach SHREE MATA VAISHNO DEVI DARBAAR.
We board a bus from JAMMU to
KATRA , this was a passenger bus and we paid our rent and I was very much
disappointed as in J&K no prepaid SIMs from rest of INDIA works and all is
for security purposes and we all had a prepaid SIMs. Enjoying journey by Bus
over snake type road and slopes and climbing of the busses. For the very first
time I witnessed a traffic jam of hilly areas it took almost three hours to be
get rid of and for the reason we came to know that there was a landslide on the
road and the path was defected due to this accident. So finally, after a tired
journey of almost five hours we reached KATRA.
The things were very much changed
there as I saw there was a huge and heavy armed forces were deployed so that
there remain no tension. I was overwhelmed by watching the scenic beauty of
nature. Peoples of J&K were in their traditional dresses and they were very
much humble towards the tourists and some of them were notorious too. We
reached Katra and soon we were experiencing many brokers promising a good and
budget room. One of them promised to take us to best hotel in town and that too
in budget, we agreed upon his promise and he took us to some congested colony
in Katra and there no room were available to be checked in. Soon Papa got angry
over his fake promise and we declined his proposal. Now the situation was same
for us so we came on main road and again we got a hotel there which was neither
better nor bad but could fulfil our need so we all checked in there and we all
became fresh there. And I want to inform my readers that since there is lack of
water so one is not allowed to waste water in washing clothes and other things.
We all became fresh and were feeling relaxed there and we submitted our luggage
and belongings there and we started our journey towards Shree Mata Vaishno
Darbar on our feet. So I along with my Father went to yatri seva Kendra and
enrol ourselves to get entry towards temple we took 10 entry tickets (Yatra
Parchi) which were free of cost and now we all were excited to be first to
experience such an environment and I could feel the enlightenment available in
the air and I was experienced that why our Ancestors were coming here to get
knowledge.
After achieving the yatra parchi
we came back and started our journey along with our family and friends. Shukla
uncle asked me to take a picture of our so I took out my camera and click a
memory pic or groupie. Now we started again towards Darbaar Mata Vaishno Devi,
there came a river name BAAN GANGA river I am not
sure about the name but it’s flow was terrible as it was just coming down from
the Himalayas. Then there we were checked again and now we were enrolled for
the Holy Yatra.
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As the sun was going to be set
and the yatra continues for day as well as night. The scenic beauty was just
amusing all of us. We were getting excited about this as this was our first
time. One can simply see the diversity of India here as the people from
different places of India were there for the same cause and Destination. Many
Hermits were there seeking Salvation. The peoples were singing holy chants just
like “Chalo Bulawa Aya Hai Mata Ne Bulaya Hai…….” And “Prem se bolo jai mata
ki……………” The whole environment was
enthusiastic and Holy. I was enjoying all of this and you just believe me you
will get the intimate peace there.
Now since we were travelling from
morning so we all became hungry. We’ve heard about the free food offered by the
owner of T-series (a music cassetes and CD company), so we reached the place
where the Bhandara Was venued but as we reached the place we got shocked that
there was no Bhandara. Since the hunger was on cloud nine so we decided to take
meal from nearby restaurant. We booked a table there and ordered our food. If
you are out of your home so never think of good quality food or the one which
you love to eat and sounds tasty. It was not as satisfying as per as the cost
we paid. Since the restaurant was over the mountain so everything which is
being used to make food or anything was costly as the additional transportation
cost was included to reach the destination.
There became a case which I would
like to mention here so that my readers will be aware of unexpected events. A
worker from the restaurant was get shocked by the electricity flowing through
the open wire. I was shocked and had pain in my heart that it might be some
terrorist making insane situation but thank god just like any movie this was
not the situation. I thanked Mataji when the situation became normal as He was
being removed from the shock. Then we started again
Now there darkness was coming but
we were amazed and amused by seeing the lighting beauty of the place. Proper
arrangement were made for the visitors so that the yatra remain uninterrupted.
Even small carings were fulfilled just like toilet facility to ensure
sanitation of the place. Railing were made there for the safety of the visitors.
Drinking water was available there for every turn. Shedding was there as there
the rain comes often without any prior information. We were prepare for any
situation as we already have purchased the unique rain suits which were so
cheap and for single use only. We were approaching upwards towards the Darbaar.
One can see the tiny blinking of star like creations coming from downwards and
also be overwhelmed. I was listening Radio over my mobile phone as this is my
hobby and the channel was 92.7 Big FM and the programme which was been
podcasting was Suhana Safar With Annu Kapoor. The Radio Jockey was describing
about the journey completed by Indian Cinema. We were continuously walking to
reach the destination. After sometime we realized that my younger brother and
Shukla Uncle’s son Rishabh was missing. So we came back for some distance down
the mountain and was searching here and there. Soon we find Shubham and
Rishabh. Papa was scolding him of not being walking along us side by side.
We reached to the Ardh Kunwari ,
A halt on the mid-way of the holy journey. Here is a holy cave which is very
narrow and there is a belief of the followers that one can simply cross the
cave by crawling inside it. We took the entry slip and continued our journey
towards the Holy Darbaar. We were determined to achieve the goal and were
walking enthusiastically that we’ll surely get Darshan of Mata Vaishno Devi
‘Pindi’. As now we were on the way leading to the Holy Temple we were
distracted by a sudden weeping of a girl aged 9-10 years old as she was
detached with her family. We were trying to help her but were unable as she was
from Haryana and was unable to describe the whole incident how it happened. There
was a little bit problem in helping her as our cell-phones were not working and
the local authorities have the language problem in conversation. Soon a
localite was ready to help her as he was from the same state J&K and his
phone was working and he also could communicate with the Shrine Board
Authorities in their own language.
Walking whole the night the day
was coming I was feeling as I was in the clouds. Really if you’ll go there you
will feel very special as you are in a heaven. The sun was rising and soon
there came a shower of rain. We were prepared but some of us have torn rain
suit. The rain stops after 20 minutes and in these 20 minutes I witnessed how
dangerous the rain can became on the mountains. The water was flowing in bulk
and the flow of the current was terribly high. I was missing Srashti in this
situation. I was thinking if she were with me at this time I will definitely
hug her and kiss her passionately, the whole mood of mine turned into romantic
imaginations of being in the arms of my shona. I’ve forgotten the cause of my
journey why I was here but soon I was disturbed by a sudden call of my father
as we have reached the Holy Darbaar. Now we have to submit our belongings and
take a bath. As according to Hindu Mythology before getting any holy meetings
one has to be pure both in mind and in physique.
We submitted our shoes, jackets,
leather belts, mobile phone,…..etc now we took advantage of the military pass
so as we do not have to wait for Darshan. We were privileged of having darshan
very clearly and in a very proper manner. As there is a belief that whatever
wishes is being asked woul get fulfilled very soon. So I asked goddess Vaishno
Devi of a good future and a happy married life with my Shona “Srashti”.
Everybody was asking according to themselves whatever wishes they wanted to be
fulfilled. We took our time and took a very deep and fine glimpse of the Holy
Pindi. It is a stone structure build naturally and have the shape of three
goddess. The view was very energising. Soon we were asked to vacate the campus
and we did as per the instruction given to us by the officials. You have to
control your emotions as there are many outside who have same emotions and are
in a line to get a glimpse of Maata Vaishno Devi.
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